Rod Shark One

An Expected Depression

Well I can't say I didn't see today's depression coming. There has been a lot of stress and a lot to do, and nonstop action and movement for days. Obviously something about my mental was going to collapse.

Today it happened after realizing that I was supposed to come back to work today. Luckily I work remotely so it was just a matter of logging on. And my boss, and my team, were super understanding. No one made a fuss about it at all. But I was definitely humiliated. I've had stress dreams about waking up late for work, or skipping work by accident. And before I had a job I had those dreams about school. So facing the reality of that was awful. I'm just glad I'm good at my job and my team likes me. It meant that I mostly had to get over myself and my fear of failure rather than trying to explain myself to someone.

It's hard thinking about work with the move still in progress. Even with projects I'm excited about, I can't give it my all yet. I just gotta take my time, take it one day at a time, do what I can, and avoid pushing myself too hard. All easier written than done, but at least I know what I should do.

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Other than that, the boyfriend cleaned and assembled the couch!! And I moved my computer back onto my old desk in a bedroom so now the beautiful wood table I bought is free to be used as a dining table, like it should be. Now I just need placemats I like. They need to be sufficiently nerdy and pretty in some way.

Stretch

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I'm back to stretching!! I did these two classes since my body soreness felt better today and already I feel better for it. If I can get back to doing these daily it will pay off. And then I can start training at the gym in at this new building!! It's pretty nice, gotta say.

Chess

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Just puzzles still, but I plan to put in more time again starting tomorrow.

Thinking About Tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be a tough day because a lot of important items will be arriving. The apartment will be much more comfortable and accommodating since one of those things will be our bed. But it'll take a lot of effort and lifting, unfortunately. I wish I was already muscular and strong so that doing all of this would be easier. But there's no way I was getting back in shape in my last living situation. Having a life at all was impossible there.

But aside from the heavy packages arriving, I want to stretch again, play a Chess match against the computer, get some time in Tekken, and pick a pizza recipe to try making sometime this weekend! I got some really fun cookbooks, three of them specifically pizza books. So I plan to get much better at this.

Dates I'm Looking Forward To