April 13. 11 Days Left - Anxiety Spiral
Sunday was a recovery day in a lot of ways. I was still able to pack two boxes of kitchen stuff, too, and finish my Tekken 8 weekly battle pass missions. But I think I'm still like 3 or 4 boxes away from being finished with the kitchen.
The anxiety around the packing is starting to crush me today. The boyfriend's health is not improving or getting worse, but the pressure is starting to pile on. I don't feel like I can handle this. I'm worried about so many things, including the boyfriend. I'm not sure how to stay on task or even what task to be rightfully focused on. I want everything to be okay. I want things to feel like they're improving. But instead I feel so stuck and helpless. I want to be able to do it myself. I need to power through. I feel so weak.
But we got approved for an apartment. So we have a place to be moving to ahead of schedule. I should keep that in mind and try to relax.
Timeskip, it's now the evening. I'm fine, got a good amount of boxes packed, and got some time in on Jam in Strive! So the day ended well. I need to try and avoid spiraling again tomorrow, though. That was tough.
Important Dates
- Hades Dental Surgery - This Wednesday.
- Doctor's Appointment - April 20th.
- Dental Surgery Eval - April 23rd.
On the Packing Front
Progress is being made. But we need to move a little faster. At least we got the TV packed, though. And the boyfriend finished his first electronics box. Should only be three or so more to go, but he needs to visit his doctor tomorrow to get a better look at what the skin condition he's dealing with is.
Boxes Packed
- Food boxes 1 through 4 & Kitchen 2 - There's no order to how I'm packing the rest of my pantry stuff now. I'm putting whatever I can in boxes and trying to get the whole thing cleaned up so that next I can move onto our bathroom supply of stuff (boxes of toothpaste, floss, etc.). And then my home gym stuff, which luckily is a very small pile of things. It's just that they're heavy. But anyway these Food boxes had a lot of canned goods.
Guilty Gear Strive
I'm back. I'm learning Jam. I'm so happy to be playing this game again, with a character I really like. It's time to learn it for real and get good.
Things On Break:
- Stretch
- Chess
- Baking
- Tekken 8
- Drawing
- Forums
- Game Dev
- SF Third Strike (On break until I finish the Tekken battlepass and the Guilty Gear Strive 2.0 patch)
Thinking About Tomorrow
I need to spend most of my work day preparing articles for some important releases we have this week. But assuming I am an absolute boss about it, I can get that done by the afternoon. Also thinking of having oatmeal for breakfast again. I usually mix in brown sugar, peanut butter, and banana to make it hearty. Might do the same again tomorrow.
Dates I'm Looking Forward To
- July 2nd - Avatar fighting game release!!
- August 6th - Marvel Tokkon release!